Thanks pre.
JD as in Jack Daniels. Used to drink loads of that. Tapos na realize ko di pala gamay ng tiyan ko yan.
Di na rin pwede RHB sa akin lalagnatin ako Lol!
Buti ka pa may outlet in biking. Ang hirap sa akin if I have a bad day at work I start hitting our bar early starting at 9 pm matapos ako by 11 I've drank a whole bottle then walk home with a big takeaway pint cup of our nice Merlot. Yup 4 years with the company and they always give half of my bonus for some bullsith reason. I hit them back by drinking to my hearts delight.
Now no more. I need to simplify it down to the core. Getting rid of alcohol for good is the key.
Once my mind and thoughts are free of the haze and webs of alcohol I can think clearer and quieter and calmer.
That is where I want to be...just a simple feeling of clear sobriety. No nagging monkey at the back of your mind. Worthless rambling chatter.
Day 15....a very stressful day at work today.
Paborito ko JD bro, lalo na on the rocks lang. Iwan nyo na lang ako sa sulok pag ganun. hahaha!
Siguro ung transition ko eh nanggaling din sa inggit: kasi ung mga biker friends ko eh hindi na nainom ngayon, since nakakasama ko sila sa tambayan namin eh naisip ko to do the same din. I remember ung isang newbie rider namin eh sinabihan ako: "kuya wag ka nang uminom, hihina ka sa pagpadyak nyan, kaw din hindi ka makakahabol sa amin"
Nag-mark sa akin un and napaisip ako: oo nga naman, mahihirapan akong sumama sa long ride kung alcohol ung nasa katawan ko, tapos wala pa akong exercise. So ayun, hanggang sa napansin na din nila na instead of beer, Soda na ang iniinom ko. That's a big accomplishment for me, knowing na super love ko ang alcohol! But that didn't came as smooth as silk. Dumating ako sa point na may trangkaso ako, hirap umubo, and other stuffs. I guess dahil naga-adjust pa ung katawan ko with the new setup na meron cya.
I suggest na somehow you do the same bro: find something or anything na mabubuhusan mo ng attention mo on your road to recovery. If you like biking, climbing, road tripping, anything! Naging hooked lang naman tayo kasi may mga idle moments tayo in life eh tapos ang gusto lang natin eh uminom na lang (my opinion lang). But the biggest motivation that you can think is your family lalo na ang anak mo. By that alone, alam kong makakayanan mo yan, trust me!
Nga pala speaking of bonus? Half lang ang binibigay ng company mo for that?
Wat Da Pak! Seriously, anong klase un? Nakakastress nga naman kung iisipin!