ewan ko lang kung may thread na ganito, pero paki-merge na lang kung meron.
after a wonderful, though sometimes problematic 17-18 year relationship with the bottle (started at age 14 or 15), i have decided to stop drinking for as long as possible. i'm currently on my 8th sober day, which is the longest i haven't had a drink in ages, except for the times i was sick or had to go on antibiotics. eto yung mga dahilan ko for making this decision...
1. health reasons. di na healthy ang laki ng tiyan ko...i'm 5'7 and nearly 150 pounds of relatively thin arms and huge belly...
2. the desire to be a good role model for my kids-to-be. (may be getting married by the end of the year.)
3. i'm not really the best drunk out there. not the worst by far, but not a very good drunk either.
4. musical reasons. when i was in my teens and early 20's, i'd need a beer before going on stage to take away stage fright, and i'd insist that the best songs i've written were the ones written while intoxicated. di na ganun ngayon...di na ako nakakaramdam ng stage fright, but i still insist on drinking before a set (with sometimes disastrous results), and when i try writing while intoxicated these days, i often wake up sober and realize i wrote a bunch of crap...or can't remember the melody i came up with.
hopefully i can stay sober until the first or second week of march. because if i can, sana tuloy-tuloy na ito. i have nothing against drinking or people who drink, but not all drinkers are the same, and i think it might be about time i put the bottle aside for the above reasons...indefinitely. if all turns out well, i'm aiming to be, if not 100% alcohol free, someone who only drinks during very special occasions...
any other former drinkers out there? paano at bakit kayo tumigil? and what keeps you away from the booze? and how do those who haven't touched a drink in their life stay away from drinking?
